Monthly Archives: September 2009

Seriously, Wake up!



Inna lilah wa inaa ilayhi la raji’oon

SubhanaAllah, it seems like yesterday I prayed janazah for a sister in our community, and today I prayed janazah for a brother. Both of them young.

I feel like i benefit from each janazah in a way I cannot describe, but for some reason, I will never forget this incident. This brother who passed away (Allah yerhamo) was a brother of a dear friend of mine, shes my age, we hung out a lot, had fun, ate pizza, and laughed. But subhanAllah i have never imagined to be sitting next to her, holding her hand tight next to me, repeatingly saying ‘inna liah wa inaa ilayhi laraji’oon. She was in denial, saying ‘No, no, I don’t know why everyone is crying, I shut the door after he left, and he said he’s coming back!’

Sigh. It was shocking, traumatizing, horrifying, but alhamduliah.

It was a strange death, this brother was shot, downtown after midnight.

Everyone shall taste death. And only on the Day of Resurrection shall you be paid your wages in full. And whoever is removed away from the Fire and admitted to Paradise, he indeed is successful. The life of this world is only the enjoyment of deception (a deceiving thing). [Al’Imran 185]

SubhanAllah, i have only heard good about this brother, from his sister and friends, but what i read in the news, shocked me. They claimed he was leaving a bar and got shot becuase of gangs he had belonged to. Allahu ‘alam if the stories are true, and we all hope and pray they are not.

At the janazah, an extremely large number of nonmuslims were there, I even think they were more than the muslims. There was at least 25 non-muslim girls sitting with us. I talk to them, asking them how they knew him and what not. I even helped a couple of sisters put on a hijab alhamduliah. What got me thinking was, maybe allahu ‘alam if he hadn’t died doing the best thing, maybe a person at the janazah would of converted. InshaAllah!

So, how do we benefit? The countless amount of youth dying regularly is very scary subhanAllah. It makes a person constantly think, how do I know the angel of death won’t choose me next? Well, we don’t know.

Another thing a friend of mine mentioned was a person is really really known, after their death. It really hit me today, a person can be a straight up hypocrite. But we never know, we never know but truly a person’s heart and faith shines and shows after his/her death. It can be through so many ways, the number of people who spoke only good of him/her, the number of people at the janazah, the way he died, and so on.

Death. Its bitter, its hard, but in the end, let us view it as a reminder. A reminder that really, seriously wake up! This life, its so short, so useless, its time to change, its time-right now- to change. You want jannaah, Allah subhanaahu wa ta’ala tells us various ways to get there. Its time to leave this dunya behind, leave it, and put the grave in front of us. The grave. Our destination, not our final, but the next stop. And its so near, we just don’t know. We all need this reminder, for me foremost.

You never know, when you will end up alone, in that hole. So, take the remainding time left and make it worthy.

Wallahu ‘alam.

May Allah subhanahu wa ta’ala make it easy on his family. May Allah protect him from the trials of the grave. Keep him and his family in your duaa’s please.

Read more here. (no one knows how acurate it is though- i will try to update this inshaAllah)


A Day with Nature..


at point pelee.

هذا خلق الله فأروني ماذا خلق اللذين من دونه

This is the creation of Allâh. So show Me that which those (whom you worship), besides Him have created. Nay, the thâlimûn (polytheists, wrong­doers and those who do not believe in the Oneness of Allâh) are in plain error. [Luqman 11]



Prayed Asr Here :)

Prayed Asr Here 🙂


The End



Maybe this is how we’ll feel when death comes to us… overwhelmed with regret, powerless to stop the moments slipping by, dismayed at how little we really did with the time we had, and so scared that the little we did wasn’t accepted by Allah subhanahu wa ta’ala for some reason.

The end of Ramadan is here and I feel all these things.

How did a whole month pass so quickly? Why didn’t I try harder and make more of an effort?

I wish I could go back.

I wish I could have more time.

I wish… I wish…

Read more here

The 2 Missing Ingredients (Part 2)


Read Part One.


I left you off with (part 1) what the two most important things in making decisions boil down too. Duaa and Tawakul.

Through this post i want to share with you 4 points.

So, lets start from the basics, what is the definitions for tawakul and what is the definition to duaa:

Tawakul: complete dependence & sacred trust in Allah
is a supplication in Islam, an Arabic term which means to ‘call out’ or to ‘summon’.

Point 1: 3 steps duaa, action, and tawakul

Remember Ibrahim ‘alayhi asalam’s story, such an inspiring story:
Step 1: duaa- Ibrahim not knowing what was going to be the best for him he made duaa to Allah subhanahu.

Step 2: Action- Ibrahim left his wife Hajar radiaAllah ‘anhaa and his son Ismael in a desert. A desert with no one, no food, no water, absolutely nothing.

Step 3: Tawakul- he made the duaa, and knew Allah will take care of his family. He asked for it in his supplication but had a content heart. SubhanAllah the level of emaan a person must attain to reach that level of tawakul. You must know that it is all in Allah’s hands. Whether you think it is good for you or not.

“O our Lord! I have made some of my offspring to dwell in an uncultivable valley by Your Sacred House (the Ka’bah at Makkah); in order, O our Lord, that they may perform As-Salât (Iqâmat-as-Salât), so fill some hearts among men with love towards them, and (O Allâh) provide them with fruits so that they may give thanks. (Ibrahim: 37)

Also, Hajar radiaAllahu ‘anha had full tawakul. She did not sit besider her son weeping she had trust in Allah, and went and searched for water or food for her son. And due to her piety, Allah rewarded her with a river that bursted from under the feet of her son. Allahu akbar!

Ibrahim knows that Allah is the all hearing all knowing. He knows the only One who can answer his prayers is Allah subhanahu wa ta’ala and how does he know this? He tried it and it worked 🙂

“All the praises and thanks be to Allâh, Who has given me in old age Ismâ’il (Ishmael) and Ishâque (Isaac). Verily! My Lord is indeed the All-Hearer of invocations. (Ibrahim:39)

Tie your camel, and put your trust in Allah.

Point 2: Istikharaa (special offer 2 in 1- duaa and tawakul)

Blessings, because You have the Power and I do not have the power. You Know everything and I do not know, and You have knowledge of the unseen. Oh Allah! If in Your Knowledge this action (state here) is better for my religion and faith, for my life and end [death], for here [in this world] and the hereafter then make it destined for me and make it easy for me and then add blessings [baraka’] in it, for me. O Allah! In Your Knowledge if this action is bad for me, bad for my religion and faith, for my life and end [death], for here [in this world] and the hereafter then turn it away from me and turn me away from it and whatever is better for me, ordain [destine] that for me and then make me satisfied with it.”

Read that duaa, read it twice. Look at how it’s worded, when you come to make a decision you must look at it in a different angle. Will it affect my deen? Will it make me better? or worse? We may think we know what is the ‘best’ for us, but do we really?

…and it may be that you dislike a thing which is good for you and that you like a thing which is bad for you. Allâh knows but you do not know. (Albaqarah:216)

SubhanAllah, istikharaa is such a missing factor in our lives. If every time we are faced with a decision and just prayed 2 rakah’s and really left it all to Allah subhanahu then our lives and decisions would be so much easier. So next time you are faced with a decision, humble yourself, place your head on the floor and ask for Allah’s guidance.

Point 3: Remember Allah knows best

And your Lord creates whatsoever He wills and chooses, no choice have they (in any matter). Glorified be Allâh, and exalted above all that they associate as partners (with Him). (AlQasaas:68)

Sadly, many people tend to do go out of their way after praying istikharaa. They sometimes think Allah is not answering them or He azawajal must send them a ‘sign’. Think about it if Allah has created you and has already written down what will happen to you don’t you think He’s the best of planners 🙂 and alhamauliah we all know He is.

The decision of the matter, before and after (these events) is only with Allâh (ArRum:4)

Point 4 Alhamd wal shukru lilah!

الحمد لله رب العالمين

All the praises and thanks be to Allâh, the Lord [] of the ‘Alamîn (mankind, jinns and all that exists) (AlFatihah:2)

Allah subhanahu wa talaa your Rabb, the only One deserving of being praised. Whatever happens to you remember to thank Him sincerely, because He chose only what is good for you.

Quick Recap:

  1. Trait of a true believer a person with emaan, is the one who performs duaa regularly, leaves his matters to Allah, and then act upon what is of the truth.
  2. Istikhara- make the duaa and leave the rest to Allah
  3. Remember you are the slave, you have little knowledge. Allah subhanahu has created you so he knows what is best for you, accept that.
  4. Always remember to thank Him. He will always chose what has the khayr (good) in it. He knows what is good for you.
  5. Best of actions is duaa
  6. Ramadan= best time to be making your duaa!

Evidence from Quran about duaa and takwakul:

And put your trust in Allâh, and Sufficient is Allâh as a Wakîl (Trustee, or Disposer of affairs). (Surah Alaraaf: 3)

“And trust and rely on the Living One (Allah), Who will never die, and celebrate His praises and thanks. And Sufficient is He to be acquainted with the sins of His slaves.” (Surah Al-Furqan:58)

” And whoever places his trust in Allah, Sufficient is He for him, for Allah will surely accomplish His Purpose: For verily, Allah has appointed for all things a due proportion” (Surah AlTalaq:3)

And your Lord said: “Invoke Me, [i.e. believe in My Oneness (Islâmic Monotheism)] (and ask Me for anything) I will respond to your (invocation). Verily! Those who scorn My worship [i.e. do not invoke Me, and do not believe in My Oneness, (Islâmic Monotheism)] they will surely enter Hell in humiliation!” (Surah Gafir: 60)

And when My slaves ask you (O Muhammad SAW) concerning Me, then (answer them), I am indeed near (to them by My Knowledge). I respond to the invocations of the supplicant when he calls on Me (without any mediator or intercessor). So let them obey Me and believe in Me, so that they may be led aright. (Albaqarah: 186)

Wallahu ‘alaam, sorry it is long, my ideas were bouncing around like ping ball balls. I was going to make part 3 but I compressed all my ideas in this one post! InshaAllah it was of benefit and remember me in your duaas ;).

The 2 Missing Ingredients (Part 1)


Every day in our lives we have decisions to make. Depending on who you are you have different priorities. A mother puts her children and decides what to do. She has to decide what food everyone in the family will like. A student has to decide what subject to study first, what time to get up for school. A doctor has to decide whether this medication is better than the other, and the list goes on.

But sometimes, we have those decisions which take days upon days even weeks or months to decide what the best answer would be. Like for example what school to go to or who you want to marry. So how do we really really know what the best answer is?

Recently I have been faced with a very big decision (well for me it is :P) and it is basically a subject I wake up and sleep thinking about. Its something i really want but at the same time to scared to take that step. SubhanAllah. So what i did was go through my old school notes, and went on websites i remember my Careers teacher telling me about to know how to become better at decision making.

Some important points:

1. Write down pros and cons.

2. Whats my goal? Will making this decision get me there?

3. Look into it, ask people, study the matter very seriously

4. Ambition rate? You really want it?

5. Do you have a plan B?

As you can see they are very very repeated questions we are told to ask ourselves when faced with a decision to make.This is in fact a very smart way to decide, i love the idea of writing down pros and cons but for some reason, i always feel like I am too selfish, I don’t know how to explain it. All these questions are about me? What do i think? Me, me, and .. me!

I thought about it and just was amazed by how much we butt into our own lives. Ok sounds weird, but what i mean is sometimes we forget the two most important things that Allah subhanahu wa ta’la told us to not forget. Two things that we are repeatedly reminded of through the stories of the prophets were tested and trialed through. What are these two things?

Duaa and Tawakul.

So I will leave you to ponder about that until I write up the next batch 😉

To be continued inshaaAllah =) I broke my shift key lol